March 3, 2008

The taste of pain

Sorry for my absence, I planned to post more often, but it is hard to even think what to write when you feel like someone is tugging, or pulling the inside of your stomach. During ovulation is when I have most of my pain. The cramping come in waves, with little concern to what I have going on in life. Sometimes it was so bad if not worse, pain medications don't even help. Also I can't take anything strong like Ibuprofen, it makes me sick to my stomach esp. if I don't take it with food before that. Having endometriosis is no fun and annoying, there is no cure for this disease ... you just have to learn to live with it.

I still have cramps now and then even though I changed my diet to being a 70% vegetarian. Endo diet help to some degree, but sometimes the stabbing pain would come on suddenly I couldn’t go places, because it is just feel uncomfortable! The cramps would start a few days before my period, and last the whole time, sometimes longer depending on my commitment to my diet. I normally catch a mild pain one day or two days before my period, then have pain and cramps at ovulation. If I stick to my diet, I might get two pain-free weeks before it started all over again.

I had three kinds of cysts removed thru a laparotomy surgery two years ago. But my Obgyn didn't do much with my Adenomyosis (an ingrowth of the endometrium from the inside of the uterus), as the only cure to it was by having a hysterectomy. Back then I didn't want to think about the possibility of getting a hysterectomy, but I am considering that option now since it really become a hindrance for me in many ways. I lived with the painful cysts for several years before the surgery, and I still have a painful period 2 years after the surgery, I want to be pain free. I want a normal life. That is NOT too much to ask, I think. My recent ultrasound test showed the source of my problem is still the same, inside the uterus. It has enlarging a bit but not dangerous, just annoying. The obgyn told me I have a choice to do a partial hysterectomy, meaning removing only the uterus and leaves the cervix and ovaries in place. After that, I will have a semi menopause period but my skin elasticity will not be affected. Well, I have not decided anything still weighing the pluses and minuses. Sorry to bore you all with my rants, but if you were me...what will you choose? Dealing with the pain every month or go for a hysterectomy? Hysterectomy is never an easy option...but at my age I don't have a desire to reproduce. I just don't want to.


Fun said...

aku juga baru2 nih sakit perut.. tapi sakitnya karena tamu bulanan... bisa sampe muntah2 loh

Therry said...

If I were you, I'd get hsyterectomy :) Just like you, I don't have the desire to reproduce either.

Don't get me wrong - I like children, I just can't handle a whole one, that's all :D

Belle said...

if it would help ease the pain, go for hysterectomy. i have known a lot of people at work who chose to have hysterectomy. it is no fun being in pain month after month.

Elyani said...

@Therry&Belle: thanks, I might give it a try for good.

Anonymous said...

I hope you're feeling better, g/f! If it something to give you comfort it's all your decision.